There’s no denying that as of late. I’ve not been the most cheery or positive dude, that’s who I was. On Saturday 7th of January, I felt like a grown man for the first time. I’ve started to think in a way I’ve never thought possible. Instead of waking up and feeling like it’s just another day, it feels new. I made amends with people I didn’t think possible. All because I was able to take a step back and realize that it’s not all about being this angst filled teenager with nothing but a drive to do things i’m not meant to. But this new attitude has made me realize i’m not some asshole, i’m a human, and human’s are twisted, dark and evil. But people are what they are, there is no point in feeling hatred towards people which would just develop into hatred for myself. I’m glad I’ve seen things from another perspective just by opening my ears and opening my mind. People may say i’m fake and all the rest, but i’m sick of the negative vibe i’m constantly spewing. Apologies to anyone I’ve upset with my terrible attitude. I used to say new years were just another, but as a day turns into a year, this one is gonna be a good one. I know it. Peace guys, I love you all!
I had a bad day today so I wrote this sack of shit
“Well now daddy’s blind with hate,
No more dinner on our plate,
Momma aint got time,
She’s out till late,
Trapped in prison cell,
Living here is living hell,
But Momma gonna buy me,
Something nice as long as i dont tell,
Once I was suprised,
When I looked into her eyes,
No more gifts cause I’m sick,
Just cut the lies,
Where did you sleep last night?
You stayed out through to bright,
There’s nothing you can do,
To make it right”
I’m feeling better now…